Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Cost of Hurry

"Being in a hurry. Getting to the next thing without fully entering the thing in front of me. I cannot think of a single advantage I've ever gained from being in a hurry. But a thousand broken and missed things, tens of thousands, lie in the wake of all the rushing...Through all that haste I thought I was making up time. It turns out that I was throwing it away." Mark Buchanan

This quote is so convicting. With 3 little ones, I feel like I'm constantly saying, "hurry up...walk faster...let's go". Time is the one thing we all have the same amount of. It can't be bought or stored up. But it can be wasted. And who would of thought that the quickest way to waste time would be to rush through life? Each moment in our life is a gift. Each breath. And while we can't make more hours in the day, we can slow time.

"And this is the way to slow time: When I fully enter time's swift current, enter into the current moment with the weight of all my attention, I slow the torrent with the weight of me all here. I can slow the torrent by being all here. I only live the full life when I live fully in the moment."     One Thousands Gifts, pg. 68

And one way that has changed me from a rushing fool to a slower of time is by counting His gifts. When I give each moment my full attention and look for God's next blessing, I am able to slow time. The way to slow time is to slow down. Something that is not the American way. There is the constant pressure that says the more I am doing the more successful I will be. And this isn't just in the corporate world, this belief is rampant in the church...especially for women. Just because I stay at home with my children, it feels like I'm not doing enough unless I'm involved in Bible study, mom's groups, volunteering in the children's program, being the room mother, and so much more. All of these opportunities are good, some very good. And they are all so hard to say no to. Last year I said yes to all of them....and I learned first hand how all the hurry and rushing can only lead to broken and missed moments. This year I promised myself to look at each commitment through the only guide we have been given to get through this life. This is what I found.

"We are merely moving shadows, and all of our busy rushing ends in nothing." Psalm 39:6 (NLT)

I had to make some hard decisions and say no to some great opportunities, but it has been worth it. I've realized how being at home during the day gives me so much more time to manage this wonderful household that God has blessed me with. And when the time I have is not spent rushing, it is invested more fully into what I have made priorities. It brings to mind the saying, 'It is better to do a few things well than many things poorly'.

So as I continue to learn the art of slowing time, I continue to count His gifts and give Him thanks. And as I do this I feel the pressure of the world lessen.

Gifts 174-192
windows open
flowers in bloom
strawberries, blueberries and pineapple
all three snuggled up on the couch
sucess for the oldest
God paving the way
knowing that He is preparing my heart
sanctification
wisdom from friends
homemade headlights
sisters sleeping together
youngest air guitaring
her sweet kisses
chore chart sucess
running water
trash mountain project & kids with a hope
quiet mornings
the priveledge of being called Mama
that my children have never known true hunger and the ablility to pass that blessing on to two other precious children



Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Overcoming

'For what I am doing I do not understand. For what I will to do, I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. It is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from death? I thank God-through Jesus Christ our Lord. '

Romans 7:15, 17-18, 24-25

This verse describes my week I am feeling the same frustration as Paul. I want to slow and count His gifts, yet I still find myself rushing through the gift of today. I need to rise early and spend time alone with my Savior, but my hand finds the snooze button time and time again. I vow to be a speaker of strong words only to find, in a matter of minutes, my words have torn these walls down.

In 1 Corinthians 9:27, Paul talks about overcoming the flesh, 'I beat my body and make it my slave.'  Without God the flesh will win every time. Even with God our fallen human bodies are bent towards sin. So this week I am working on beating my flesh. Giving God the control. There is a Mighty God living in me through whom all is possible. I will rely on Him to slow and see. His strength to say no to more sleep and yes to time with Him. And His ultimate grace and patience will be the lens for which I see my precious blessings.

I know that I will continue to struggle.  No one can be ever be good enough. All have sinned, we are all wretched. And that is why this last verse if the most important.
'Who will deliver me from death? I thank God-through Jesus Christ our Lord. "

Gifts 164-173

oldest teaching youngest her colors
confirmation
planning excitement
the way she talks
love topeka
God's provision
spring forward...more daylight!
buds on the trees
God's relentless grace
He is here!

Monday, March 7, 2011

A Simple List...

Gifts 144-163
getting to kiss boo boos and make them all better
little one helping in the kitchen asking to taste everything
sunshine!
special time with Kate
whoosh!
long hugs and belly button kisses
advice from another mom over coffee
white haired woman worshipping God with hands raised
learning from those who are wiser
a church that preaches the Truth
anticipation
growth
worshipping Him as a family
perfect ending to a perfect day
daughters reading together
father/son bonding time
laughing with Kate
surprise frozen hot cocoa and chocolate covered faces
quietly laying next to him waiting for him to open up...and he does
seeing the growth and maturity of the oldest

I will give thanks to the LORD because of His righteousness; I will sing the praises of the name of the LORD Most High.
Psalm 7:17